I have a lot of things to try to let go of this week.
We’ve got a little tummy bug in our home this week. John was hit first, and as I write this I can feel myself getting more and more nauseaus.
I didn’t do as much cleaning as I had hoped to do this week, but I did do some. I’m trying to be proud of what I managed to do, but the mess is real ya’ll. I’m dreaming of being buried alive in children’s toys and dirty laundry.
I kept Aurora home from school today. She is struggling with the long hours and long weeks. She is exhausted and I needed some one on one time with my girl. She’s so tired so we spent most of our mommy daughter time snuggled on the couch watching Ryan’s World on YouTube.
Ryan purposefully engaged with the other kids on the block two days in a row. The first day he even went and knocked on one boy’s door and asked him to come out. Then while they rode bikes together I heard Ryan ask the other boy if he had a good day at school. I’m so proud and so grateful for whatever magic dust they sprinkle on Ryan at school to give him the confidence to do this.
I finished a small craft project this week, I made a sweater for my friend’s tiny dog. Its pretty cute if I do say so myself. I’ll post photos and the pattern I used on another post soon. I also have read about half a book. I’m not too keen on it, but I’m too far into the story to quit.
The kids insisted on coming with me on my early morning Toby walk. Ryan was on his scooter and got ahead of me. He didn’t come back to me when I called to him though I didn’t call too loudly as it was before 6 AM and I don’t want our neighbours to hate us. When I turned a corner I found Ryan’s scooter on its side and no Ryan in sight, though I could hear him screaming. It was a really really scary moment. Dragging dog, scooter, and daughter with me I found him within a minute standing in front of the house of a woman I’ve met a couple of times. She was there with him in her robe looking confused and worried. Eventually I realized he had seen our cat running down the road and tried to grab him. He really loves the cat, and for Ryan love can be pretty obsessive and controlling. Some days he is ok with the fact that the cat likes to go outside, most days he is not. Said cat was waiting for us when we got home. I am trying not to imagine that entire street pointing to our house and discussing the lady who just lets her kids run wild. I usually don’t spend much time worrying about what people think of me, but this time it is kind of getting to me. Probably because that time between finding the scooter and finding Ryan was so terrifying to me that I feel like I deserve the label of bad mom. Not fair, but there it is. Let’s wash it out, right?
I had breakfast with a couple of good friends this week. It was definitely the highlight of my week. I am so grateful for the people that surround me and I hope I don’t take things like a meal with friends for granted ever again when life finds it’s new normal.
This week my baby blog passed 500 views. It is a small audience, but one that means the world to me. Thank you for joining me. I hope you are well.